I once was lost but now am found...

It happened a few months ago.

My stay here at BYU has been quite the learning experience. I started as a pre-theater major. Then I changed to pre-film. After that little jaunt and almost getting into the program I switched to communications. Now that I fully plan to graduate in comms I find myself once again.
I've never been able to fully leave the arts behind. Journalism is great indeed and I may do a bit of it myself but it isn't where my heart lies.
I was invited a few months ago to be the MC for an elementary school choir concert. It was a tribute to Broadway and I would be playing the role of the Scarecrow. I began working on my costume right away and began reliving all I used to love to do. I practiced some jokes and the scarecrow's song. I performed two different nights, singing dancing, playing silly games and what not. What life! I had forgotten how much fun it was. It felt like the time I dressed up for a pirate costume contest at BYU. I was the loudest, funniest pirate in the cafeteria.
I began my quest anew. Acting has always been a great joy for me. To make people laugh or make them feel something deep inside is an awesome feeling.
While returning to my acting roots I began listening to musicals as well and regained my love for them. Music. What power and eloquence without a single word. Feeling emerging through vibrations in the strings or hollow chambers of some instrument. Music, too has always been a passion for me. I've not always played the piano the best or sang the best but I love it. In fact, in this regained passion for music I started the "Piano Support Group" in my ward. I had talked to too many people who said "I really need to play the piano. I haven't practiced in so long." So, I started a group to help people play. Last Wednesday we had our first recital and it was highly enjoyable.
Film and writing have always been there too. All of these passions have since been reborn and heightened in ways I've never felt before. I've learned so much and I've almost been obsessed with media for the last while. My vision has once again come and I don't think I'll let it leave again.
We can be a force for good in the world. We've always had something special. We have different talents, that is true, but we want what is best. It is our desire to do good that trumps all else. That is what makes us unique.
Recently I have had more vision than ever before about what is needed and what can be given to such a cause. The basis for my vision continues to be the words from prophets and apostles. One such collection of words can be found in The Gospel Vision of the Arts. Even the old testament has given me advice in regards to the arts. In Moses' day and others, leaders sought for cunning men (in their craft) who were filled with "wisdom of heart." I believe we are men with wisdom of heart.

Our lives will be trying. We fill find many diversions and difficulties in reaching our goals. I guess it may only be fair for those who need to go the furthest to have the most opposition. We may be tried like Abraham in order to prove ourselves capable and worthy. I'm just not always sure of the path to get there. But we can do it!
And now...I have to go back to work. :) Gotta love this life!

I'm back?

Well, first of all thank you to Bach and Splashboy for maintaining the
flow of information. I can't say that I will definitely write more but
I will try. These last few months have been trying for me and my
family. I am currently trying to find a full time job so I can better
support Jane and Gwen. I hope something turns up in the next week or
so. I have been reading the blog though not contributing much. I have
been inspired by the messages of hope an conviction to make a
difference in the world.

I have often noticed that the "LDS cinema" is lacking. Movie after
movie is based entirely on LDS pop culture or cliches it would be a
breath of fresh air to see more movies similar to Saints and Soldiers
that incorporates the gospel, but doesn't require a knowledge of
relief society stereotypes.

We can be a force for good in the media, I am trying to get back on my
feet right now, but I do have a nice computer with iMovie and if I can
get my hands on a camera I hope to do something again with some of the
vision that I used to have.

I also intend to develop some computer programs and possibly delve
into other media like podcasts.

I don't say all this to say I will do every bit, because I often have
difficulty pushing myself to the accomplishments I should have, more I
seek express the willingness to do the work. I don't always have the
vision but I can do the labor. I cede the leadship and visionary role
to those more capable, if I am told what to accomplish then I will do
it.

So I guess what I am saying is I don't know what to do, but I'm in.
Well got to run.

Super Guy
(on the move)